I felt it in the air today, that crispness that heralds the coming of fall. A relief from the oppressive Alabama summer heat, a bittersweet transition from one season to the next. I watch for it each year with great anticipation, but it never fails to catch me by surprise. It seems that one day I wake up to see the leaves drifting down in a patchwork of reds, yellows, and oranges, a change in the light, and a blessed cooling of the temperatures. I have always loved fall; quiet, introspective time by the fire, the beauty of the view with the addition of the changing leaves, and perfect sleeping weather. It has traditionally been a time for me to look inward, to evaluate myself and the direction my life is taking, and to right my course if I have strayed from my goals.
My fall sunflowers are in bloom…
This has been a year of change for me, and I feel, I hope, that more change is coming. The many adjustments I made in my diet and exercise habits have become routine, and I have am feeling so much better health-wise (down 45 pounds!), and about myself in general. I have to remain vigilant, though, as I have been here before. Each morning I tell myself that I don’t have to exercise every day…just today. So far, it’s working well. I saw what happened to my mother’s health when she stopped moving, and I will do everything I can to prevent the same from happening to me. I used to joke about being the ‘Kickboxing Granny’, but my back has decided that maybe ‘Yoga Granny’ and ‘Walking Granny’ are wiser options. No matter what, my mantra is “move forward”…with the emphasis on ‘move’. It’s so interesting how making these changes to my physical body has spurred changes in other areas of my life, as well.
It is very easy to become complacent, falling into ruts that prevent us from growing. I am such a creature of habit and really have to be aware of that tendency in myself, as change becomes more challenging with age if we let it. More and more, I have to force myself to try new things, go new places- even just move to a new spot in yoga class…but I never regret having reached out and tried something outside my comfort zone. Every single time that I do, it brings new perspective and understanding- the true path to growth.
There are so many things in my life that I want and need to move forward on, both personally and professionally. I have always been one who takes on far too many obligations, thinking I can do everything. I usually get it all done, but at what cost? I am working on learning to think through things with more consideration, knowing that sometimes less is more. Less allows us to give more of ourselves more fully, instead of giving frantic, haphazard energy to too many different things. It’s a hard lesson for me to learn, as I have a difficult time even thinking that I have disappointed someone. Ultimately, though, I will be able to give more of better quality. More of my genuine self, if I focus on choosing more carefully where I place my energy. It is a lesson that has been a long time in coming, but I’m ready. Change is in the air, and this fall I will yet again welcome it into my life with arms open wide.